I walk the line

It is said that the road to enlightenment is as difficult to walk as the razor's edge.  While not exactly a razor, the balancing act that a so-called "slackline" requires presents ample difficulty and challenge.  I find it a most demanding master, a mirror for mind-body connection, a strip of nylon that cannot be fooled or faked or fudged.  You are either on the line or you are off.  Like rock climbing in many ways, the line is perfect Zen.  When the suitor is not centered, he cannot walk.  The line cannot be muscled.  Frustration and anger make the task even more difficult.  To achieve success, the student must let go of the desire to succeed.  Countless times I stepped up, wobbled drunkenly, and jumped back to the ground.  But then...but then there came a day when I could stand, one leg out, hands floating on the wind, the center there below me.  To step forward, to shift the weight, to move forward with the world shifting underneath, every cell and quantum of focus bent to the task was another thing altogether.  One day I did take that step, and another, and another.  And on March 12th, exactly one week after my 51st birthday, I traversed all thirty feet, each uncertain step a triumph, a staggering, wavering victory!  Oh, what a great joy that was.  A perfect little adventure played out in my back yard, never more than two feet above the ground.

My young friend, Trent, introduced me to this fiendish device during our winter trip to Joshua Tree.  He, by far the better athlete, jumped up and started spinning this way and that, already seemingly a master of this obscure art.  If he could do it, couldn't I?  Could this old dog learn a new trick?  I determined to learn this new dance.  For the first time in many years, I threw myself at something totally new and very difficult.  Indeed, I suspect that when most people jump on a slackline for the first time, they will think the deed impossible.  Only the proof that others do it gives you the courage to persist.  I had seen this done by some of the world's great climbers, and the line has been a pastime and training tool for climbers for decades.  Somehow it remained outside my radar.  Now I'm an addict, and every day I can, I put in time, even if only a few minutes.  In the morning between mouthfuls of cereal, I will swing into the realm of controlled disaster and teeter for a few moments, finding that place where the body, mind, and soul can connect.  I fall often, but when I'm warmed up, my body accustomed to the ridiculous demands, I can walk the line.  On a few occasions, I've walked right up and covered the whole distance.  More frequently, I fall off a couple of times until my recalcitrant muscles and inner ear submit to my will.  I find it toughens my mind and ability to focus, and after a session, I'm completely charged and feeling alive, which is the point. I'm now beginning to tackle the trick of turning around, a feat I've only managed to stick a few times.  My goal is to walk one way, turn around, and come back, a sixty foot journey that will no doubt take me weeks to complete.  Failure will be, has been my constant companion, but that is the essence of all great adventures.  If the outcome were certain, why begin?  The Zen speak of "beginner's mind."  What better way to find it than to begin an uncertain path?  All we can do is throw our hearts into the task and rejoice in the struggle.